Thursday, March 29, 2007
i'm officially 1 yr and 2 days older than i was on 27 mar 06. okie. that's lame. but that's also true.
my life is really a bore. i'm not exactly complaining, i guess i'm just stating. after all these yrs.. its still the same old story bout a girl. sometimes i wished that i could fit in more and perhaps to be more involved but at other times i feel mostly apathetic.
i've this tenadacy to be more reserved when i'm alone. its a phenonmenon i'm trying to figure out. i find it really funny that most of my jc friends think that i'm this super independent person who lik is strong willed and happy go lucky. i'm guessin my facade is good. i don't feel the need to socialize anymore. and i think it will be downfall. i'm not sure. but i've an inkling that life is not gonna be happening. it may seem to be that way.. but i doubt i'll actually feel it.
thankz to all the pple who sent me birthday greetings.. esp u babes.. i'm sure u noe who u are.
hmm the things which elated me were that i've got my barun buffel wallet, my vandalised phone, dinner at a jap restaraunt... and yesh. my pierced. it still hurts when i put the alcohol though. heh. okie i won't whine. thanks again all u peeps. esp jaz for finally draggin me down.. btw i found some one else who i might just hate more by making run back after bballing. heh. no wait. i take that back.
i'm not relieved that i've applied for nus and ntu. i've got smu to go. i just have to copy and paste my essay. but still i can't pin the exact thing that makes me worried. maybe its just life. ah heck. i should just take it as it comes.
btw i'm not dumb. but i'm rather curt. and mostly hope that i still speak my mind, another trait that i currently feel is worth changing. its one thing to actually believe what your horoscope says.. its another thing to find it coincidental rite?? anywayz. aries are suppose to be initiators.. and supposedly LIKE to take charge. well i am an initiator. but i kinda detest it now. so why do they insist that that i like doing it? go figure. *randomness i noe. i tend to be lik dat now.
room'z in a mess. its late and there'z work tmr. serene has warned me that there'z only filing to do. there'z febc tmr. haven't studied. maybe i should run and study tmr morning. rite.
i've not gettin any good rest lately. i wake up at least twice every nite. its irritating. maybe i should take sum sleepin pills. i attribute it to me worrying bout things that i dunno what i'm woryring about.
hmm i'm readin the jodi picoult book now.. the deaver one can just fly back. oh.. i think u guys should stop linkin me. i think someone i didn't want to find out bout this place found it. and its slightly irksome. yeepz.
gotta go down to pioneer soon. i want to play badminton and i need to pass sum stuff to my jrs. i wonder if you guys have training this fri. i might skip dot k or issit daugt k or just .k? heck i might just miss girl'z contact grp this fri just coz zi bi-ing is so much easier. i hate sharing. i hate sharing to pple i'm not particularly close with and i dun exactly want them to noe what i'm thinking. hmm that's sumthing i might want to keep goin though. maybe its my security issue ah wellz. i'm not a shrink and i so can't analyze myself. *although i try to.
i don't think i'm dat depressed. at least not now. i just think my mood tends to stay in a shade slightly darker than the usual grey. when i'm out now.. all i want pple to see is hot pink. if not i think that my personality'z more of a dirty greenish-grey. weird huh. how i relate my moods to colours. i'm starting to lik red. the cool kind of red. i.e my faded toe nails colour. which reminds me that i have take the nail polish off. hmm maybe tmr.
my hair's too thick. but i promised myself i won't cut it till june.
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