Monday, December 31, 2007
its been ages since i'm here but since the year is coming to a close, ain't it quint that everyone starts making resolutions? yeps. i'm no exception. its silly i noe.. but i guess one thing good bout making resolutions online is that you can easily go back to find what you actually put up.
hence now its a time of reflection.. i went back to my old blog.. looking at the my posts and ultimately my this year's resolutions. it made me kinda realise that i've been kind of going no where.
you see i kinda already made new resolutions and comparing them makes me realise how much i've actually grown or not grown.
welcome to 2007 resolution anaylsis 101
i don't really think i've stopped procrastinating.. but i think i've found a way to help myself cope.. setting datelines and being more proactive to find out datelines is really impt
i said i wanted to improve my handwritting that really didn't happen. and i said i'd lose weight.. wellss on a good weeks i can get myself down to 64 but usually i revert back to my 66 norm and go up to 68 when i start to binge. these are actually quite trivile resolutions don't you think? haha
wells i must say that when i said i wanted to be more cautious bout the things i say i really did managed to do that.. but its really stifling but i knoe its a good practise to keep.. i guess i just have to remember not be so sharp when i tok to some pple.. i tend to easliy put people down although i don't really mean it.. hmm
being more deteremined. that's very nice and proper dear. but i realised determined in what? total lack of direction and hence i think this year was quite unfriutful.
furthermore over the course of the year i got stuck in the rut of "how to walk in between" i realised that i still don't know how to figure that out. sometimes i despise goin to church and sumtimes i feel guilty for not. i don't i really think i've come to a conclusion. i've said that i want to be more extroverted and that i want to go for yf more but seriously during the crunch time.. i don't want to be more Godly, although i knoe i should want it. i figured its really not the pple pullin me back. so i've decided to find a better devotion plan which i hope will help.
in restrospect this year to me kinda sucked. i never did actually enjoyed it. my outlook was mainly cloudy and i couldn't find the sunshine.i'm still missing my special someone and didn't realise that i kinda stressed out alot.
wells i think its okie that i was like that. times change. so i can change. i won't say i will be optimistic but rather more neutral and light. be willing to let the wind take me for a ride through the ups and downs. not be so clammed up. but strive to be at peace. be a better person which may translate to being a better friend.
okie enough of the serious tok.
here's some updates that if you don't already knoe should really knoe.
1) i got into an accident i gave up defending myself
2) all of a sudden i'm into moisturisers esp from loccitane which i've no idea how to spell
3) i like close heels and think they are pretty but honestly they'll just give me blisters and i don't know why
4) in the midst of still revamping my wardrobe which means i've 2 more weeks to get new clothes for skool/cny hee
5)didn't get into hall cos i didn't apply online.. sorry for the trouble to all my friends for the recommendation
6)didn't join odac because i didn't find out what they were doin
7)stop giving me things to display for my present i really dont know what to do with them
8)still need to pack my room again
9)want to get another notebook although i've a organiser already
10) didn't get my potter books coz i can't find them(don't knoe if i still want them)
11) still haven't got a camera coz hmm yeah. i need to start to like to cam whore
12) no idea why there'z so many ants on my table when i don't even eat on my table
13) got 3.5 for sem 1 disappointed coz i wanted a 4.0 but happy to get my econs results and screw theater studies
14)will try to update this blog more without pointless rants ((:
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