Sunday, October 7, 2007
is it not for life that we are living for?
when did mundaneness become so insecure?
to what have i seen and welcome the meaning?
was it ever the way of imitating the ideal?
implicitly sought thus rendered none.
change influence all to exist.
logic became knowledge but fools for the wise.
fluid affection lost stored.
depression comes in bouts reasons unknown,
nothing affects but effects astound,
honouring nothing to be what cometh
breathe simply fuels pain
the smiles brought bring back the norm
found itself through deserted corners
over again don't go just stay
denial.
this week has been stressful. the next will be even more so. so exhilirating! yesterday we andre, hazel and darrell and i watched resident evil 3. didn't watch 2 but caught the last part when i came home. i forgot how scary and grusome it was. lik really. i didn't help my stress levels at all. but it was kinda my fault for not wanting to watch balls of fury. but seriously it was just shit scary. zombies. are horrible. disgustingly horrible. the fear for them with baseless rationale for their existence do not materialise in our world. but still horrible. i can't remember why i remembered loving the show to begin with..i can only remember that 3 girls watched it together once when we turned 16. yesh i think u knoe who you are. vampires are much better even though they too are the living dead. i'm guessing cos they are simply portrayed as creatures who have a mind, a heart though cold still has passion which is alot better den zombies. i had difficulties falling asleep.. i jumped in my seat like more then 3 times.. and all the others, save hazel(for she was the same as me), could do was to be amused over horribly frightened me. damn its freaky! stupid zombie mob. stupid stupid zombie-fied crows.. i hated the ending, cos it depicted that mere humans weren't spared and that you need to be a freak to have a surviving chance or a cure rarhh no closure.. i'm still wondering why i agreed to resident evil 3. roarh!
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