Wednesday, August 27, 2008
i've become worrisome of late. stressful to say the least, but somehow i'm still stuck at gear 0. I'm drifting along, lost and bewildered by the bombardment of information required to be digested. i've been a daze, and worse than slow, undoing each lecture with details unsolved.
the only constant 2 things now is eating den sleeping, which appalls me greatly as homework piles up high. the fact that there is work is not as daunting compared to the realisation of i've not been understanding anything.
and yet i play, whilst my time away, with every other thing nonconstructive and insignificant. Its a wonder to find out what actually goes into my head, i would hardly disagree when one says nothing.
i'm still finding my north.. but hey at least if i'm heading south i'll still get there!
right. enough ranting, really gets me no where. moving on to other news..
congrats to zhu!!! she's choir pres! hee.. actually i feel a twinge of regret and guiltiness which i hope will come to pass.. cos i'm still trying very hard to see a bigger picture bleughs.
have i mention my modules this sem SUCkS?! apparently the easiest module i feel is macro which was the hardest last sem for most friends.. so if you stack up the difficulty levels i realised that this sem is worse than worse and have killed my cap not just once over but thrice.
let me explain.. when i currently go for my lectures.. there are only 2 lessons i understand macro and marketing. marketing has proj work.. and my group seems super laid back which issn't good when the class is super smu style.. math and econometrics are both taught in greek, the only consolation for econometrics is that i'm doing it with joy and mel. micro's in the woods and it tastes like saw dust.. and so i really don't know what i am suppose to look forward to.. ROARS!
btw i just spent 1/2 an hour on a math qns which i should known how to do.. but still don't! sighs.
its not that i want to be that phantom now.. but being that is the only way i know how to at least try to make myself study. make sense? i hope so to.
kickin' [20:51]
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
the 1st week has been slightly crazy.. and it doesn't help when i'm perpetually tired.. my bio-clock is so wrong.. that any sane person shouldn't even be awake enough to blog now..
only will this bunch of flaggers sleep at 330 only to wake up at 7am to run from kr to commonwealth sec.. that's at least 8 clicks. ar wells its all in the name of getting healthy.
i'm currently rather sad. whether its because i'm just emo-ing, feeling lost when skool has started for only a week,that my time table is slightly loner-ish or the fact that i've no occasional doses of high-ness.. i've really no idea. All i know is that i feel sucky and its really no one's fault.. just that somehow everything's not under control and slightly irk-ed by the fact that i've not settled down by now.
that's partly the reason why i'm back home now. its a monday night. should be happily staying in hall laughing with my friends and watching the freshies perform star to burst but all that seems a bit trivial and not inline to my current don't-knoe-why-i'm-so-emo-y-mood. all the same i went for cass'z and jas'z bdae celebration at sushi tei just now.. catching up with my arts og is rather refreshing as well as sad.. to think that just a yr ago.. i was so much closer to them.. hall really sucks you out of it doesn't it?
there's ibg opening tmr.. hoorah.. and to think i stayed on to experience all these.. i've really no idea wad's going on.. lost in transition? i think so too.. maybe its the sudden realization that i'm getting old.. and haven't really done anything that significant. bahhhss
jaz just sent a your blood type personality reflection thing.. its somewhat accurate.. meaning that me, an AB+ person is somewhat awkward and a nervous driver.. lol.. quite enlightening..
been running a bit.. legs feel rather tired.. its surprising to find out that nothing can get me out of this lethargic mood that i am now.. maybe its the lack of QT..
i'm looking forward to wednesday, somehow jas and per never fails to perk me up while letting me wallow in my self inflicted misery.. heh
okies should go on to sleeping .. although i said i wanted to catch up with my studies.. what nonsense. sometimes i wonder how i ever get by in life.. i need to stop going out. i need to stop swearing. but mostly.. i think i need perspective.
kickin' [00:30]
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
WAT ARH!!! WOOSH! KR FLAG TEAM ROXXX!!!
haha.. we just spent the whole morning (frm 0200) counting money, so i'm rather shag now.. although still slightly high.. heh ((:
d-blk's having captain's ball now while dear little me sits quietly in her room.. supposedly resting.. haha.. the IRONY. should really get some shut eye before close bidding starts at 1.. if not gg..
kaiz.. i'll try to at least upload pictures of my flag team soon.. i actually want to do a ppt slide or sumthing of them coz they are all just so dear and amazingly cooperative that i'm sure i'm going to miss working with these bunch of guys. seriously the word to be noted here is WORKING. don't get me wrong we had tonnes and tonnes of fun! sometimes too much.. but our dynamics as a whole flag team rocks.. individual flaws often covered by others' strengths and we managed to understand and adapt to each other's working style with little more than questioning rather than bickering. its great! and they really helped to pull me thru the horrendously long boring hull of the mundaneness of the tasks. so 3 cheers for KR FLAG TEAM! YAY!
k.. last weekend was so shagger-fied.. was suppose to go to sentosa.. but the flaggers decided that rest was more impt.. so i managed to get some rest before i met andre and darrell to watch the mummy 3 ( IT SUCKS BIG TIME DON'T WATCH IT!) haha.. other den dat.. managed to catch up abit with darrell over shopping for groceries at clementi on sunday.. and then it was back to hall for me.. and tada here i am..
i seriously can't wait for this weekend.. just want to plonk myself down in bed to sleep and hibernate before skool starts on monday.. which i think is highly impossible.. bleuuuggghhhhsss.. my eye bags sucks!
okie.. shall stop toking now.. i've no idea why i'm in a slightly high mood.. when i should be drained.. i need to take better care of my face.. andddd haha now i can go back to regular meals.. and maybe eat less (i see the countless faces snickering away.. pafths)
okie i can't wait to meet up with perr and jas.. which i would probably do next weekday.. can't wait to get some badminton in too.. and oh ya! this friday's rag day! and bejing opening.. and lots of other stuff.. busy busy busy! need to plan my schedules better! TIME MANAGMENT! YEAH!
kk's lights out for 1 1/2 hour quick.. before i die of exhaustion.. and DYdY and wendy! i still haven't gone out with either of you! it must be the wendy and jelaine cannot meet syndrome.. lalalala.. (lameness courtesy of flag 08/09 HA! )
kickin' [10:14]
