Saturday, March 3, 2007
bbc b3. my results were unhappily expected. but thank God. Before the As started.. the realistic goal was to get ABB. but i screwed my maths by leaving 20 mks blank. and i guess that was too much to be redeem to even get a B. gp i'm happily satisfied.
i didn't cry before my results. *thanks to chan. i didn't cry after i got my results. i cried when i got home.
i felt disheartened when i asked my family whether i did okie. they said i did okie. i felt sad because they expected me to do worse. or maybe coz i realised that they dun have too much hope in me. its just hurting.
i must thank mdm ong for the last push she gave us for phy. though reluctant we found her and bugged her. mr chong was essential as well coz chan well lets put it as not too effective. mr kwok is a soul i must thank for at least giving me a spark of interest in gp.ms chew and ms xiao who were always a phone call away.. and linda. unlike my mom who blames u for my unfortunate and untimely blank out was really only my fault to begin with.
i hope my friends are in a better mood than i am. and once again this has proved that i can't stay and study alone. i can't be forgiving when i'm under pressure and i hold grudges for too long.
i feel half the world has better results than i do. and the other half have the same results that i do.
i was a nervous wreck though. my classmates deicded to watch norbit before we got back our results. i tot it was stupid and an utter waste of eight bucks.
accountancy is a bit out of the qns. but i guess that's a good thing. i think i'll die becomin an accountant for its far too dry.
i met up with wen. i'm glad i did. i finally got my jeans from esprit thank u for being so patient. i decided to get the jeans which a size smaller as an incentive to make me lose weight and look better in them. i think that might be slightly dumb. but i guess that's another one of my trying-to-be-encouraging-to-myself in-a-weird-kind-of-way-me. my phone got bend i've no idea how. she was commentin that i look tired. i must be. i have not been sleepin well the pass few nitez.
i feel amazingly drain and rite now depressed. my dad gave me a 50 for every b. i said i got a b3 for gp when both my bros got a b4. so i have a 150 now. i asked my da kor bout it. he said he didn't get that kind of money. i feel sad for him. i realised my dad can't be all that sad. coz i got the same grades as da kor. he and i both wanted better grades but we got the same. my dad told me once that he was disappointed that i got 239 for psle. he tot i'd do better then my da kor. i didn't bother to ask him bout my 15pts. i could see that he was anything but happy. and i think my results now just satisfies him that i'm not screwed up.
i seriously had no confindence in actually gettin my results. so i'm half relived that they dun suck that badly.
goin down to career fair with dada tmr.
there'z driving tmr. i'm happy. or i am slightly happy. i think i should go yf tmr to thank God.
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