Sunday, January 20, 2008
this week has been hectic. got an email stating that if i was still interested in hall i should move in asap. which i did. so hi from tmr onwards i'll be living in kent ridge.
today was bad. really bad. didn't go church. ihg officials screwed up and i messed up, for the whole point today's disaster made a lot of sense. thus "Thou shalt keep thy Sabbath day holy" is indeed a commandment to be kept. I knoe. i shouldn't put the blame on excuses but today was a new low. and i guess it really made me think bout where my piorities lie. so as this week comes to a close i don't feel to happy nor excited bout my shifting.
i'm worrying quite a bit. like whether i can fit in. whether i'll enjoy myself and all that.. and whether its even right for me to go.i guess the experience will be enlightening and there's really nothing i can do now since i've already jumped in. i won't say i'm depressed just a bit queasy.
today while my dad was toking i realised again why i still respect him. he really knows alot of things. he is a strong headed stubborn person but yet he is aware and understand his surroundings. i on the other hand bounce along hoping everything is fine. i really should be more observant and analytical over issues. freaking real and related issues.
today feels like a wake up call. the holiday mood which dazzled everything in shinning glittering accents just vanished with the most absolute final hammer of the sudden realisation that its morning and life is about the race again. so hi world. i'm up with 2 eyes wide open.
got a little susprise from yesterday. and must shout a big Thank you! but upon reflection i realise that i should have been more grateful and watch i say. yeps. okie i really need to go mug and like pack my bags i've still got a ton of things to bring to hall. i need to decorate my room!
kickin' [22:59]
