Wednesday, October 1, 2008
i'm currently slightly sad,dazed,depressed... can't seem to start muggin for my calculus mid term for tmr. i almost know that i'm going to fail it. i need help i'm hardly surviving now.
all i want to do is to curl up in bed with a nice story book.. sleep in.. be detached.. unmoving.. unfeeling.. just for awhile.
i feel quite inapt now.. appalled by my incompetency.. wondering why i'm not taking charge of my life now... mostly i'm just floating.. i guess i get like this in bouts..
last weekend was kinda fun.. managed to hang out with quite a few babes.. esp jaz and per.. we kinda went drinking on friday night with samuel for jas'z kinda bdae celebration.. den on sunday we went to intercontinental for lunch at the jasmine room. Lunch was exquisite.. and Samuel was damn nice.. footing the bill and all.. he even planned a chalet for jas yesterday.. and stole per's and my no. to invite us over.. but sadly we couldn't attend.. all the same.. HAPPY 20TH JAZ!!!
den met up with wendy on saturday.. planned to study from lik 2 but ended meeting each other at lik 5.. and at 3 .. both of us were still sleeping.. which is quite hilarious.. but at least we did managed to mug a bit.. wells.. much more then i can say for me now..
i went for badminton trials yesterday in hall.. it felt really good to play badminton again.. but sadly my racket frame imploded-again. I'm really quite sad over its demise cos i really really really liked my racket. my dad was kind enough to bring me down to queensway just now to get another one. however, i didn't get the titanium series racket.. instead got the nanotech series. i'm actally not quite satisfied.. coz the titanium series is really really really much lighter.. however, due to its less dense material the chance of it imploding is very high. yeps. as my first titanium racket can testify.. (mag and i got the same racket in sec skool and both of ours imploded after sometime.. like 3 yrs?) my recent one also lasted me for bout 3 yrs. and i figured that my dad would probably not buy me anymore rackets any time soon as i'll probably stop playin badminton competitively after this round of ihg.. so i decided to invest(its bout 150 a racket.. so it bout 6 yrs.. i spent 450 on rackets.. which is kinda expensive.. or at least to me) in a more sturdy (well lets hope it is) racket. hence the heavier nanotech. wells at least its red? the colour is kinda nicer laa.. furthermore i got an all rounded "balanced" racket.. a far cry from my usual lighter defensive racket.. almost got another with a lighter head.. but i don't knoe felt that maybe i should try another type of racket. hopefully my smashes will get better.. and that means i've to train my reflexes more.. coz my previous 2 rackets are more defensive.. okie enough on rackets.. i hope trainings and the team this yr will be as fun as the last.. i don't mind more strenuous trainings.. just well i guess it boils down to time management again..
yesterday night was kinda fruitful.. or was it morning? lol.. slept after badminton trials.. only to wake up to soggy,awful and gross macdonalds supper with some of the flaggers (mac's standard is really dropping!) but the company was great.. so that helped tonnes! den i studied from 3 to lik 530? lol.. yeps.. kinda productive till bout the last 15 mins where i could hardly keep my eyes open.. and last night was so cold.. it rained for the WHOLE night.. but at least the weather is gorgeous today.. too bad not ideal for studying.. bleughs. it really feels like a public holiday. everything's quiet and laid back.. my mind's switched off.. and it refuses to be receptive to calculus.. bleughs..
going to miss some fun activities with s26 pple this week.. but hopefully the flagger outing this saturday to queensway (to collect my racket!) will be eventful and be my adrenaline rush.. and yesh zhu.. we can eat KFC.. lol.. and go ikea again..
its about time to start muggin.. should go soon.. just watched gossip girl and grey's--- tv series.. a form of escapism.. can't find heroes ): why did i take calculus again?! HAIX
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